no, really, first breath after coma. at last my love has come along my lonely days over and life is like a song

tonight at the underground conference, I actually connected with God.

for the first time in as long as i can remember. i think maybe a campus prayer meeting in spring of 06 was the last time... maybe... until tonight.

it was fear, trembling, love... beautiful.

standing in the field (behind the church gym).

that field holds more tears shed in spiritual anguish than any other place on earth i think.

But God was there. He was in the wind. the sky. the trees. my thoughts.

there was no condemnation. but i can't just give up either.

it just felt so good to feel Him. even if just for one fleeting moment.

the wind brought hope tonight.

============================= the 2008 Book List for St. Andrew

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince Harry Potter and the Deathly Shallows Night (Weisel) Man's Search for Meaning Subversive Orthodoxy Irresistible Revolution Kingdom Ethics Y: The Last Man New Seeds of Contemplation The Sacred Way (Jones) The Way to Love (de Mello) The things they carried Sacred Pathways Mere Christianity Divine Conspiracy Sophie's World A Brave New World (Revisited) 1984 A New Kind of Christian The Story we find ourselves in The Last Word and the Word after that. The Signature of Jesus The Ragamuffin Gospel (a second reading) Picture of Dorian Grey Introducing Keirkegaard Fear and Trembling Bonhoeffer's Life Together I am America and So Can You! (Colbert) The Sopranos: The Book Deliver us From Evil (Zacharias) The Godfather The World is Flat The Hollywood Project The Dilbert Principle Elevator Music The Catcher in the Rye Franny and Zooey Of Mice and Men Goodnight.