take it like a man = easier said.
“you might need me more than you think you will.”
sometimes i feel terribly replaceable. i don’t know why i feel this way right now, like this solitary hour. but i do. something about design and something about proximity and something about women and crap do i feel so… wow… i can’t even begin to describe these feelings i’m having right now… noone has really done anything at all to me in the last 15 minutes that i should take offense to, so why am i so, so, SO offended right now? it makes no sense. this is one of those ones that shouldn’t be written at all… but… i’m already this far in… oh well… the music of interpol is strangely comforting. i shaved. the decision could be filed somewhere between wanting to care about my appearance as i improve it, and realizing that castro at best and claus at worst are not the looks i am going for… man… i need a drink… nah… too expensive. this is turning darker than i ever intended. i just realized that’s a diet coke sitting next to me…. i didn’t mean to drink one today… i ordered water at lunch… oh well… the girl behind the coffee culture counter is hot… i should say hello…
i’m pretty sure my mood could be described as a “funk”
i wanted to paste some lyrics here, but couldn’t find any that really fit.
i refuse to use that simpler plan, mr. bazan.
drew. win. this. battle.
ps found some that capture a small piece.
We speaks about travel
Yeah we think about the land
We smart like all peoples
Feeling real tan
I could take you places
Do you need a new man?
Wipe the pollen from the faces
Make revision to a dream while you wait in the van
Hey wait
Great smile
Sensitive to fate, not denial
But hey who’s on trial?
It took a lifespan
With no cellmate
the long way back
Sandy, wait why can’t we look the other way?
You’re weightless; you are exotic
You need something for which to care
Sandy, why can’t we look the other way?
fond but not in love.
if it isn’t penetration, it isn’t worth a kiss.
true faith only begins where certainty ends.
i’ve been thinking about this prayer thing.
conversely, i am in a dancing mood. and i have not danced non-self-consciously since i saw the video of josie and izzy’s wedding reception.
there has to be something to it.
found some quotes. chew on this:
“Prayer will make a man cease from sin, or sin will entice a man to cease from prayer.” John Bunyan
“A person without prayer is like a tree without roots.” Pope Pius XII
“In prayer it is better to have a heart without words than words without a heart.” John Bunyan
No man is greater than his prayer life.” – Leonard Ravenhill
“Nothing you can do will benefit you more than prayer.” Paul Y. Cho
“True prayer is measured by weight,-not by length. A single groan before God may have more fullness of prayer in it than a fine oration of great length.” C. H. Spurgeon
also got this from mary, and www.wittenburgdoor.com: and i found it particularly good.
We don’t need any more of those “Christian shelters” in the middle of downtown. The way that works is you show up in the morning, sit through a sermon or whatever the place is selling, then collect the goods—either food, or clothing, or transportation. In other words, you go to listen to what the place is preaching, then, as a reward, you get the stuff. If it’s a “Christian” shelter, you oughta get the stuff no matter whether you listen or not. This is why homeless people are the most cynical people in America.
all that, and my age, and my beard, and my belly, have been on my mind lately. inspired by You Kill Me (the ben kingsley movie), I have to say: one day at a time.
and i want to have some cozy catching up with stauffer and with nancy green (separately).
and hippies can be hot.
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PS “Upload Successful!” about d*** time
PPS “It was Lady Marmalade” – Zach Colley
PPPS “Hopefully this’ll get me a lot of chicks!” – Ken Brown, on joining MySpace.
so scared of getting older
I’m only good at being young.
not time for a big post… but…
thanks for all the birthday wishes… 45 of them on facebook to be exact… that’s a lot of love…
and thanks for the one happy thanksgiving. 
lots of quotes and pics coming… but first a short random list of things that give me joy:
- mike patz
- The men’s bathroom in the sanctuary at first a/g (good times)
- “Lie in our Graves” by Dave Matthews Band
- The Matts.
- Blues
- Drums
- Mercy
- diet coke with lime no ice
- computers and the internet.
- The A-Team (from 13th St. [RIP])
- Good Monitor Mixes
- Announcement videos.
- texts from Lakeland people
- The hope of non-platonic love
- Parents who love me
- My T Sharp.
- Continuum by John Mayer
- The Office
ok long day tomorrow… gnite.
PS “The Lord’s ok. He’s an alright guy.” – Zach Colley
mosiacally.
first and foremost.
i am very very grateful for all the calls, emails, comments, cards, and general “there”-ness that my friends have shown and are showing me. it means so much. “my heart is very full at this moment.” God shows me how real He is and His love to me through the people in my life. I’m thankful to Him, and to you all.
second and fivemost.
i owe at least ashley hiers and katie hildebrandt phone calls. they are on the way. thanks so much.
third and sixthmost.
i am in a period of learning and my thirst of knowledge, wisdom and mad CSS skills is at a high, and i like that.
fourth and seventhmost.
“true faith can only begin at the point where certainty ends.”
fifth and eighthmost.
thank you michael bay, for giving up on trying to make a movie that engages us emotionally. this is your best work yet.
ending with some quotes:
“Matt is Matt. Stauffer is Stauffer.” – Crob and Drew (in unison)
“I love you guys. I do. I’m not drunk.” – Berto Evans
“There were no bad bands in the 80s.” – Jim Wharton
“I like him, except when he’s talking about God, or anything else.” – Drew Allen, on James Dobson
“I’m a woman. I submit. It’s what I do.” – Mary Schmitt
“Number one guard. At least.” – Matt Green
peace.
ps a few interesting links: