don’t believe me when i say i’ve got it down.

it might be a
quarter life crisis,
or just a
stirring in my soul.

the trip was great.

The Amicalola Falls were awesome. It was my first real hiking experience. I loved it. There are a ton of pictures on facebook. It was a beautiful experience of connecting with God through nature and community. What an amazing opportunity.

I think I am a better person now because of it.

Here come better days.  (Robbie Seay Band)

We toured the MLK Museum, further cementing my disappointment with the people I am closest associated with racially.

“The War Question” haunts me, systemically.

It’s beginning to get to me.

My brain and heart still see violence as a necessary option in way too many situations.

It was inspiring to see someone (MLK) who refused to see Pacifism as simply an idealistic immaturity, but a nonviolent revolution. I should say, someone besides Christ. Jesus, help me in this. And, now I want to read more about Gandhi.

I’m not worried about the future. Particularly, I’m not worried about getting married/finding someone. That’s such an awesome feeling, to not be stressed about that. I look forward to it, of course. But, it’s almost like Christmas… I don’t want to hear Christmas music in August… as much as I love Christmas. I want to happen on its accord, the way its meant to.

Until then,  this is my renaissance. And I love it.

I am growing.

I am changing.

I am learning.

I am diversifying.

I am becoming the total package BAMF that God created me to be.

And I’ll drink to that.

- St. Andrew of Awesome.

a few random snippets.

i was gonna say…

a few random things i was gonna mention here.

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i’m at sonburst. it’s awesome. brian sanders and jason thompson are just totally awesome people to know and do anything with, really.
also, i love intervarsity events because they never ever let me forget about the world that jesus loves around me.

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thanks.
to all for the comments, prayers, support regarding the passing of my grandfather. He was a faithful man, and he will be missed by many.

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i got new shoes. i like them.

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i need your help.
on two things:

one: i need to find a good doctor in gainesville. preferrably male and not too old, mainly because i’d like to find a good doctor and keep him for a while.

two: i’d love fairly reasonable input on t shirts that i have or wear. be kind, but be honest.

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i have always seen flowers at funerals (good emo band name, btw) as a way to everyone trying to pretty up an ugly thing, the death of a loved one. This past week i changed my paradigm. Flowers are often given as a symbol of love in itself to a date or spouse. Also they are given to the winners of gold medals and of races and contests. I now appreciate the giving of flowers at a funeral as a way of conveying a sense of accomplishment of finishing the race of life and also as a sign of affection for a loved one.

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i am glad kentucky won.

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my current list of pet names for matt stauffer:

stauffersaurus (rex)
mammoth muffin
tall monster
stauffercules
stauffernicus
stauffergie
famous amos
stauf-firm abs

any feelings on my names?

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ok, goodnight.

PS “You’re like the Fiji of women.” - Drew Allen